Sandra and Maria, my heart goes out to both of you. I have no clue how traumatic the impact of something like this is on the mother. I don't claim to know what you have to deal with every day. But even as a guy, I know what I'd feel without my children.
That is a beautiful share BAF, I can relate in that we children took care of our mother for the last 11 months of her life (lung cancer) I think it is a time of great inner strength and surely you must take comfort in the fact that you were/are so there for her and that you smiled with gratitude. My your heart continue to heal.
I hope it somehow will come to be over for you Boomer, I am sorry for whatever negative things you have to deal with in life, your doing or not, I am still sorry for anyone's suffering or turmoil. As long as you are alive there is always hope and I am very glad that you did not choose to take your life Boomer.
I do hope something will change for the good.
The hardest thing I have ever had to do was to leave my marriage after 23 difficult years, I feel very good about it now, eight years later. I learned that I am alot more of a person than I ever believed that I was while with him. That I was worthy of life, love and happiness. I became different in that I learned to trust again, most importantly myself to be ok, to be alone. I learned also that I do not have to allow myself to be broken down and berated by another human being, that when I really try I can take a stand and fight for what is right.
Heck no, I would not marry (too late for me anyway on that one) And I would never go through that again, ever, not for anyone, anywhere or anytime. Great questions...
That is a deep and wonderful thing that you have come through AFB, I too am very, sincerely happy for you. It is a great burden when they give you a time limit, especially for those who love you, who care. They wait day in and day out. Very difficult.
I am again very happy that you were granted a second chance at living life, I hope all goes well for you every day of it. Tina