When I joined TBD I was at the lowest point in my life. I had been crying and crying missing Joe terribly. I remember getting on myspace...and there popped up the TBD site. I think in a way God was trying to help me find people that could relate or just some who had never walked in our shoes but were there to offer a friendship or to let me know they cared. I met some wonderful people there. I won't lie...met some jerks too (not personnally either - but did have the honor of meeting a few face to face great people). I was sinking and they were there.
I have read some of the most wonderful stories of some people meeting other people on the site and ended up with them in real life....I guess one of the things I have no clue on is how to start over.....
I have co-workers who say, "go out with him and just get a free meal"....k...that isn't me. I can't misslead someone to get a "free meal". I like to get to know them. It either clicks or doesn't. I can't play games.....and I don't want someone that thinks because I'm a widow I need to be rescued. Hello...I pay my bills and do just fine.
What I do want is someone to share my life with. Someone that makes me happy and makes me laugh. Someone that is severly nervous when they talk on the phone and rattles ninety to nothing. Someone who loves to stay home and watch a movie, or just go walk in a park. Someone that we can go eat Mexican food or sit on the floor and eat pizza with my kids. I just want to find my bestfriend again and start the next chapter with, while not being made to regret the last chapter.