Learning to love the pain

[Mother Sanity (JackieRodzinski)]

Now, Mother Sanity has had countless operations as many of you know. I am looking at at least 2 more in the coming year. A knee replacement and a spinal fusion.

I went to a pain management specialist for a while, and he gave me lots and lots of narcotics (120 Avinza/ day 4 percocets/ day. This went on for several years, then he booted me out because I ate a pot brownie. (Big deal, I felt horrible; thought it would help. It didnt.) In one way I am a very lucky woman. I do not have addiction. Anyone else would have been hospitalized. I didnt break a sweat. (I really should be studied).

The knee guy said that he can not do the surgery uless I can tolerate signifigantly more pain.The Son has got me at a half mile and I'm going to help clean the house.  He has bigger plans too (!!!), The steroid shot has worn off...

It's been years. I've had a cervical fusion, 2 c sections, an orthoplasty and a Jones fixation to my R foot (They cut a pie shaped chunk out of the bones and nail . 

 it back together (!!!!), 2 lumbar laminectomies in 1 week, and a bilateral hip replacement. Forgive me if I forgot something.. There are bulging discs, etc, too.

I hate pain. I am afraid of pain. In fact I  am terrified of it. But my knee has to be replaced and my spine....well...

Does anyone have any adviice as to how I can come to love pain, indeed thrive on it. I'mdepressed and I'm scared and I dont want to play this game anymore. Your friend. Mother Sanity (I am 52 yo)

[blondie 11]

I do not think you will ever like pain. Seeing a good therapist, you may be able to tolerate it again. There are things in life we have to deal with, and this is just another one of those. If the first therapist does not work, get another. I was lucky, the first one worked. I have a friend that had to fo through 4 to find one that was suitable for her.

I am sorry for your condition.

[Mother Sanity (JackieRodzinski)]

I was thinking of hypnosis...has anyone had any success with that?