The Dark Side

[Wayne Goodwin]

Well Snagg , you don't know me , Never seem me , My Body or whom i am . This is what i am .

I am 6 foot tall

I wear 7x sweat pants

5 to 6x shirt

I weigh around 470 (have weighted 570)

I am Disabled that came from a fall that prevents me from working

I live on 1227 per month

My stomach hangs between my legs like a 50 pound bag of potatoes 

I use Crutches to get around

I still drive my Truck

I shop at Walmart

I did all this to myself over the years , i let my body go with like of any will power to put a stop to my on demise . When my wife decided she didn't want to raise our Girls . She went her way i went mine . I raise my Girls the best i could . Loneliness and despair caused me to gain weight to where i am now . Pills now pretty much keeps me going with the insulin i take .

I had a good Childhood

I had good Parents

I have always been able to have the things i needed

I've had sex with two women in my life (my first love and my X)

Every thing that went wrong in my life is because i let it

I do enjoy Fox because it amuses me

I dislike Obama because it amuses me

I have learned the fact i will die a fat slob and thats OK

Yes i earned meager wages . Never cared to apply myself to do any better . My last Job lasted 25 years . Many of those years was without missing a day of work . I worked anywhere from 32 to 60 hours a week stand on hard Concrete , Toward the last days weeks months  of my work history i pretty much had to drag myself home , i hurt so bad . Becoming disabled was a blessing . I have no pain now , I am Content with my Life 

Politics amuse the hell out of me especially the Left .

Maybe i only finished High School , never wanted to go to a college or had a desire to learn to make me better 

So Snagg , Shadow or anyone else wanta know more about me , hell just ask , I'll even supply pictures . I am what i am . If you get one thing out of what i shared i hope it puts a picture in your mind what i look like every night when you go to sleep ...........

Feel free to gloat stare , paste on your wall , This is ME Enjoy ....

[Snagg]

[frenchy]

well just my 2 cents .. you have to let people be who and what they wanna be so long as they're not hurtin anybody else .. wayne i wish you would take more pride in yourself and take better care of yourself .. but just like some people like to smoke or drink or do drugs we all have our own way to see and live life .. in the end you have to live with yourself and if you're ok with it then who am i to judge .. i wish you well tho .. 

[uno,dos,3]

That shade of blue is very unflattering on you Donald.

Might I suggest darker shades such as dark gray, black etc.

[Merry]

I like who you are. I had a friend who lost a lot of weight but she did it just to feel better. She was already very beautiful. I planted a garden for a bunch of ladies most of whom are disabled and some of whom are diabetic and I still get thank you cards. I taught a disabled Viet Nam Vet how to grow tomatoes. One of his favorite foods. He's diabetic too. Probably from agent orange exposure. I had a chance to sell the family car for 5 grand but instead gave it to the local cab co in a sweetheart deal. I think that helped quite a few folks. I don't contribute to society in conventional ways that are sanctioned by those who think money is everything.But for all I know all the little things have added up to more than what others have contributed.

[Merry]

Move as much as you can and eat good stuff as much as you can/ water is awesome for making someone feel good. HUGS Wayne.

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I just wrote a nasty response to what I think was mistreatment towards Wayne, but I deleted it.  I hope he comes back and those responsible apologize for being insensitive. It will probably show up fully in Email notifications, but I don't want to start any more trouble.

[Kim]

Wayne....you are not any worse or better than ANYONE on this forum. The bad things in your life that you did does not make you a bad person just like the good things you did in your life don't make you a saint. I don't care if you're 120 pounds or 520....it does not DEFINE who you are. Give yourself some credit for who you are, where you have been, what you have done. You HAVE made differences in people's lives around you throughout your life, I'm sure. You've talked about how you raised your daughters after your wife left. Do you know how FEW men DO that? The fact that your girls don't talk to you does NOT mean you failed at raising them. They could have been put into foster care and been severely abused or worse. YOU raised them. UNFORTUNATELY, people aren't always grateful for what other people have done for them and the sacrifices that have been made.

We have ALL done things that haven't been beneficial to our lives BUT since there is NO WAY to undo anything we ever did or said, we have to be careful not to poison ourselves with REGRET. LOOK upon the positives, forgive yourself for whatever "SUCKS" in your life and enjoy the things that amuse you!! START NOW to appreciate and LIKE, if not LOVE who you are, WAYNE!!