Round peg in a square hole

[caseyjo]

I think I will take some time off the blog section for a while...I lost a friend because of the blog I put up " Here no evil, See no evil,Speak no evil" about how I felt about people who censor blogs, because I felt I got censored unfairly.

Maybe I was too tough, maybe I am not so smart, maybe I should have let it slide and just forgot about it like I normally would have done. I am a square peg in a round hole, always have been. I have never felt like I fit in TBD since I came here about 7 or 8 months ago, although there are many here who have been real nice to me including the one who censored me. People who grabbed me up and held me above water more than a few times.

I did say something mean I am sorry for. I was lashing out for being censored..........

Branch dipped for golden
water for the dieing crops
up above my mind.........written by me for country girl.................

Love to all my TBD friends...K

[Tina]

I am sorry that you are bored, I don't say whatever Friend, but then I was on the other end wasn't I, that makes sense...I have said it twice Casey, I respect you, I have been a friend to you and I would never say anything else, I love my friends..Still sorry you are now bored. I'm not I have another word for what I am it's called tired...

[caseyjo]

Whatever...I'm bored.

[Tina]

It was ended the minute it began Casey, never knew there was a problem till it hit the front page, My position was clearly posted on the first thread and now again on this one.
You are absolutely correct Casey Jo...Censorship is an issue from both angles...

[caseyjo]

Yes Tina....I am human...I have to admit I was a bit agitated after you censured me with no note to tell me why. Believe me I gave it some thought before I posted, but I did not do it out of malice. I never post out of malice, but sometimes I do want people to think. I started my blog about censure because I thought it was a good subject. If you go back....You will notice I never mentioned any names and I also sent you a note explaining I thought twice about posting it because you might take it personal. Now I am very sorry I did put it out there because it has turned into a friendship and revenge thing(not my doing) instead of what it was meant to be about and that was the dangers of censure... You will notice I never post about what a true friend should be, because friends are many things...good & bad and we are all only human and none of us perfect.......My apologies to everyone out there who has come in the middle of this, it was not my intent to cause trouble. I truly thought the issue of censure was something that needed to be talked about and I used a example I should not have used. Tina.....from now on you are welcome to pm me about this so we don't have to drag others in on our personal feelings. To me we can end this right now because I realize we are ALL only human and make mistakes.........K

[Tina]

Thanks Aggie, Not sure who the hug is for but I feel like I need a hug. So I am going to say thanks and take it !

[Aggie]

Aggie hug!

[Tina]

I do not think that because a person makes a choice that may or may not be offensive to some and not to others is to make a blanket statement that they are of no value as a friend or otherwise. I think that we have become a disposable society and that it has become very easy to just throw away spouses, relatives, friends one another over the slightest infraction to feelings.
I have lost "friends" due to the lies, slander and rumors posted on TBD, and I did not see such an outrage over that. There should have been censorship especially since I was not online or available to speak for or to defend the gruesome lies being told and allowed to be posted.
Now I have to wonder where the real "drama" lies. There was no drama, it went from no one knowing about the post that was not posted to two, not one but two threads started for whatever the purpose. Does a "Friend" knowing what was done already to the other "friend" start threads to further cause upset or attention. Ok but you see once again the infraction of not posting a statement could have been addressed by pm, email, or privately. So again where is the drama..Who knew except the two that were having the very small issue and now it has become a public issue, for the purpose of?

Being vindictive, mean, hateful or judgmental works in so many directions people. To have the ability to resolve an issue between two people is one thing, to make a public or attempt to make a public specticale for the purpose of revenge or hatefulness is quite another. Yes Casey as I came to your other public post and frankly stated that I did not post your comment. I also said that I saw your issue and side of it, only because you made it public before ever asking me about it. I have now come to answer it again. What is the point, what a good friend and thank you, still yet I love you as a person and still yet you began yet another thread on the same issue. Have you obtained your revenge yet or will this continue? This could have been dealt with between us, if "friendship" had anything to do with it to begin with.
However just as the vicious slander on old TBD took place had nothing to do with "friendship" I am left to question your intent as well. I have never hidden, people. And not one of those who slandered me ever asked one question when I returned either, why because the truth had nothing to do with it in the first place nor did friendship. So let's be careful who we are judging here, there are two side to every case and once a person apologizes and states that they are sorry, do we "as friends" forgive or at least try to work it out among "friends" or do we start yet another thread to gain more reaction and maybe start more trouble..it had not one thing to do with censorship it had everything to do with something that yes I need my friends to walk through with me. Still, I am not going anywhere people, bring it on. I am right here and I love you all. If it bring pleasure to continue, have at it. Blessings,T

[Samaa Sax]

Dear Casey,
I don’t know all the details but I can tell you few things about” Friends”..
A true friend that we want – not need- in our life. and it is the one who will never judge you. A friend who will accept you and cope –even- with your shortcoming.
A friend that will always – no matter what- will be open, clear and honest to you..
A real friend is the one who will allow you to be you and accept the differences in you… and it’s a two way street; you will allow them to be themselves as well..
I don’t assume that friends should be my soul mate or to be perfect…. But I aim for their caring heart and understanding…
We are human and we do mistakes, and I have no problem to admit mine. Nevertheless, I want my friend to admit their slip and communicate with me on the spot, and a month after …
Loving yourself: why not? ….. and what’s wrong with that… you need to love yourself and that is not selfishness, it’s “self loving”.. and again Casey if your friend doesn’t like it, then she is not a friend and no need to drop one tear for her/him…
A need is not a want. We need air, water, and food to survive… if we lose one of those we die…
Friend: we want and appreciate real friends… but if they leave we don’t die… we miss good times and we feel the emptyness..
Don’t get me wrong; it’s great to have true-real friends…. But if my friends is going to create a drama of not allowing me to be me, then I don’t want that friend..
In the middle of this mad and crazy world, we want positive energy and caring… not war based on one thing always and it always been:…”EGO”… and the EGO it the execution of any relationship…

[caseyjo]

I love it..I love it...keep commin back Sista

[caseyjo]

Thanks Silverlake...You are right...I am just who I am and what I am is a square peg in a round hole. Feeling a little sorry for myself, which is kind of rare...I do fit in Tbd somewhat even though the fit is strange...Love you Country Girl. Funny thing about free will and free choice, only the animals have that as far as I can see, and once caught and put into the cages of un-humanity it is lost for them as well.