fitting in .....not all its cracked up to be......

[caseyjo]

I am tired of being nicey nice and trying to fit in.....
guess it's not me.  I don't think much of my words
except they are kind of like wasted energy...falling on deaf ears
really. My life is kind of like a illusion of my own
making..All the things I consider important are not really so
important...All in all I really KNOW nothing & feel stupid
trying to fit in and say things people expect when I really don't
feel that way.... I don't think much of intelligence at all...after all
we are the only animal that has created its own demise through the atom
bomb...so much for intelligence.......K

[caseyjo]

Hi Kitty...Maybe all this thinking is not all its cracked up to be either. It makes me sad sometimes.....But its OK to feel feelings....I think the sad ones help develop soft hearts...Big Hugs.....K

[Kittycat]

Caseyjo, you always keep me thinking. Thanks. :)

[caseyjo]

Welcome to the club Dottie

[caseyjo]

Awe...Another sweety....I sure do know how to pick em.

[Vernon Windsor]

I'm not sure I know anyone of real substance that "fits in." Welcome to the club.

[caseyjo]

To better days Phil.....k

[caseyjo]

Awe.....You two didn't miss much..Just me thinking I was trying to be a better person. I don't think it was working for me. Maybe some never saw a difference.,..that's very possible...Maybe it was something that only I felt..Funny thing the mind.

One thing I do know.... I was backing down, hiding, and trying to avoid any kind of confrontation..... I was letting past experiences get the best of me....Thanks.....Phil & Rose.

[caseyjo]

The mind is a wonderful thing..OR is it? It allows us to always mold things to our own liking. I do believe ( at this time in this conversation) a unhealthy mind gets stuck in ideals and is incapable of moving around inside it's own debth. I believe (same as in parentheses above) if out minds are healthy they will enable us to see the stupidity in holding onto staunch ideas.....If we are free, we should be able to change just like a Chameleon......Smiles.

[Chameleon1218]

I have felt almost this exact way most of my life and then it dawned on me -- I was created as a unique being. I'm not supposed to fit into any one particular group or space or community or whatever you want to call it. I've been searching for the right 'label' for myself and I figured out (finally) that there isn't one. I am the coloring that is outside of the lines and being so allows me the delicious freedom to be whoever and whatever I want to be. :o)

Great post, thanks for sharing.

[caseyjo]

Peace breeds peace...violence breeds violence...always has...always will.