WEll......I feel great...had a xanex & a glass of white zimfindale wine...Its all they had at the corner. Broke my 12 year clean & sober cycle..But ya know what...I feel great...free of them telling me once a alcoholic always a alcoholic..courage came from a bottle in my past, so maybe its the bottle that will give me the courage I need to get the heck out of dodge this time.....Hey I might have another glass soon & the morning take a pain pill for the first hangover in 12 years then make my escape plans...only thing is the girl said there wont be a room for two weeks...said there are always openings & roaches & the lady who showed the place boyfriend is a Tripple -A A** hole...I could hear him yelling obsenities from the inside of his little prison..
=I found the old apt downtown & the girl offered the next one to me. Its a step in the right direction.....
Walking distance toThe lake-front (St. Johns River) the vegetable & craft MKT (on week-ends) is right outside my front door practically, (I can sell, my jewelry there) quaint shops & plenty of restaurants where you can enjoy sitting outside & eating tea a crumpets or a great salad, or some german potatoe salad, sausage & sourcrout.or walk a few feet down the street , have homemade icecream or a good sandwich. & all kinds of rich deserts.
Festivals w/ live music on the last friday of the month inc. wine tasteing. The art galleries, antique stores, & a play theatre are always there.....Buses to the mall & grocery store..Thats for me.I can get to Joanns without anyones help....Never mind the ugly apt...It has high ceilings & three or 4 windows in each apt. & it is a real old fashioned historic building.,.get some paint & throw carpets & it can be a freaking great hideaway. In a apartment that size swatting roaches will be easy...just spray & keep things clean......nothing compared to what I have to take care of now in this big old house wit all the yard work & mosquitos........Wish me luck.......I am going to have fun for a change..I'm getting out of this prison somehow....drunk or sober...Z:)...The lakefront (on the St. Johns River which is only about two blocks away has a park & a bike path also.......There is no reason to go out & not get some great exercise & enjoy the great fl weather & Mayas book store too....This is where we have Biketober fest for the bikers & the 4th of July light up the sky w, fireworks...all I will have to do is open a window...whoo hoo.
An unlikely pairing - Darryl McDaniels of Run D.M.C. and Sarah McLachlan singing a Harry Chapin song.
Off of Absolutly Live, my absolute favorite Doors album.
The doors lived in my living room a lot