What do women want????

[Maricel Evasco]

Ok, I'm writing this piece with steam coming out of my ears. I'm furious at my ex (let me not go into the details) and looking for a way to channel my fury constructively.

So what is that women want?
I shall be honest and say I don't know what I want more except that I hope the next man I meet does not possess the irksome (euphemism) flaws of my ex. I am generally happy with the direction of my life and what I am doing to help others, but sometimes I feel there is more to just being a mom, teacher, daughter, sister, friend, and advocate of peace, etc.

"It is better to be in a jail where you can bang the walls than a jail you could not see." ~ Carson McCullers
I think the latter is what bothers me the most. I think I've become complacent and want to break free from my ivory tower of complacency.

I don't want to redefine my desires/wants in light (in dark) that of men or of my anger towards my sprouse, the louse. I value men's presence and their errors do enlighten me. "Without farts, there are no flowers. Without pricks, there are no poems. Without women, there are no homes." Yet, at this time in my life, I want to delve into what is it that defines me as female, the other 1/2 of the human species. Is there more to me than being a mother, teacher, estranged wife (11 yrs), and peace maker?

So again, I pose the question to all of you:
What is that WE, women want?


An aside (satirical)
"The perfect man--for any woman--is the man who loves her constantly and fucks her frequently, passionately, and well; who adores and admires her; is at once reliable and exciting; an earthy Adonis abd a heavenly father figure; a beautiful son, a steady daddy; a wild-eyed Bacchic lover and a calm, sober, but still funny friend..." Erica Jong

[Maricel Evasco]

Ok, here's a bit of an affirmation chant:

Energies of the universe,
I want to express my courage.
I want to express my happiness.
I want to share my spiritual wealth.
I want to be purged of negativity and bitter people.
I want to be in control of my destiny.
I want to have intimacy in a loving relationship
I want to be able to explore the depths of my talents
even to the dark places they may lead.

K...I'm going to light my white candle now. BRB (be right back)

[Dazzling Zoomer Gal Diana]

Consider replacing "I want" with "I am able" .
Just a thought.

[Maricel Evasco]

Thank you for the suggestion. The right words do make a world of a difference. =-)

[Dazzling Zoomer Gal Diana]

Namaste, Maricel. My pleasure.

[Maricel Evasco]

I just read some of the stuff I bought at The Modern Mythology Shop yesterday. I'm almost disturbed by the uncanny accuracy of the reading inside the Healing Art card I grabbed off a very busy shelf.

I scanned it just now to share:

This reading is uncannily me.

You can get yours online @
http://www.ehealingarts.org/index.html
(I am in no way affiliated with the company or org.)

[Dazzling Zoomer Gal Diana]

Ah. you've posted a link. Rightio. Ta.

Now = what does this all have to do with what you want? Is it that you are tired of the pragmatic side of life and are now delving into the more esoteric side of life?

[Maricel Evasco]

I guess I want to be less hesitant and more trusting (see CHALLENGE)

[Dazzling Zoomer Gal Diana]

Or more challenging and less trusting!

Trusting is overrated, a term often used to manipulate. Once you have learned to trust your judgement implicitly, life become a more interesting game, and the games one plays, are more challenging.

And I might add, much more fun!

[Maricel Evasco]

Diana, I still have to ponder on that last statement: Or more challenging and less trusting!

It would be a wonderful topic for a new thread. Maybe you can share your experience/ understanding of trust.

"The Trusting/Distrusting Woman"