today i learned that my best friend is dead.

[michael clubb]

I don't know what to do about myself. I fell in love with her family more than 25 years ago, the first time I've every felt love in my life, and though we haven't seen each other lately, we wrote constantly. In fact, there is a letter sitting on my desk ready to send out asking why she hasn't written in more than two weeks. Today, l got the funeral notice and a letter from her daughter. I don't know how to cry, so I am stuck. I tried lifting weights so the pain in my heart would go away. Didn't work. I haven't been had a drink in nearly 5 years. I'm drinking now. I live alone so there is no one here to hug. Any suggestions? 

[TeeBubbaDee]

I'm grateful to hear that you are feeling better michael. Hopefully the healing process has begun and will continue.

Peace

[Bob Stepp]

Good for you Michael. One day at a time.

[Joella]

It's good to see you are doing better Michael. It does get better in increments.

[TeeBubbaDee]

Like Bob said michael, One day at a time, one breath at a time.